Wondering 'what if?'

“If I could go back in time and change one thing, I’d be on top of the world.”

The thrill of that thought is intoxicating. Because on the golden path, life is fantastic. I’m always in the right place at the right time saying the right things to the right people.

But, what if it’s a trap? What if, in chasing an idealized version of myself, I am underestimating the me that exists right now? The things I call mistakes might be stepping stones towards becoming someone worthwhile. And there is no guarantee that the current me is any less valuable than a potential me.

I am not going to trade it all for a ghost, an idea. The path I am on right now has its own lessons, its own victories. I will own them. Because what I have is not a result of the paths I took, but also the ones I did not.